{"id":1330,"date":"2019-09-28T10:33:38","date_gmt":"2019-09-28T10:33:38","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.zogue.com\/blog\/?p=1330"},"modified":"2019-09-28T10:33:48","modified_gmt":"2019-09-28T10:33:48","slug":"just-whatever-it-is-right-now","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.zogue.com\/blog\/2019\/just-whatever-it-is-right-now\/","title":{"rendered":"Just Whatever It Is Right Now"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><a class=\"img\" href=\"https:\/\/www.zogue.com\/blog\/2019\/just-whatever-it-is-right-now\/lovelocks\/\" rel=\"attachment wp-att-1331\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" class=\"aligncenter size-full wp-image-1331\" src=\"https:\/\/www.zogue.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2019\/09\/lovelocks.jpg\" alt=\"Padlocks on a bridge in Hamburg\" width=\"800\" height=\"354\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.zogue.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2019\/09\/lovelocks.jpg 800w, https:\/\/www.zogue.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2019\/09\/lovelocks-300x133.jpg 300w, https:\/\/www.zogue.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2019\/09\/lovelocks-768x340.jpg 768w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 800px) 100vw, 800px\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p>Thinking about this time last year<\/p>\n<p>My neighbours bought an expensive new patio table<br \/>\nBut I don&#8217;t see them sitting in the garden much these days<br \/>\nI still find myself thinking of you (and You, and yOu and, yes, yoU too)<br \/>\nBut mostly the thoughts are different now<\/p>\n<p>I thought I would be already doing stuff<br \/>\nThat so far I have yet to achieve<\/p>\n<p>In a mirror-image semi detached, small rooms, green sofa, dog hair, sitting at the edge of the sofa with coffee, playing with my phone<br \/>\nSo much of what seems attributable to one person and one place<br \/>\nIs actually everywhere and all over<br \/>\nDifferent emotions make different places feel different<br \/>\nThey can go higher up the ladder and take precedence and rule with greater might<\/p>\n<p>Hiding things, pretending they did not happen is no good<br \/>\nBut pretending they only happened a certain way is equally no good<br \/>\nSaying &#8220;just let go&#8221; is easier said than done<br \/>\nHow do you know you actually let go?<br \/>\nWhen you no longer hold it or when it can no longer be found?<br \/>\nCan it no longer be found only because you hid it?<br \/>\nDo you hold it in your hands or in your head or in your heart?<br \/>\nOr does it have to go away, away, away forever and ever?<br \/>\nA thing that came from your heart gets stuck in your head<br \/>\nA thing that came from your head gets stuck in your heart<br \/>\nHolding your hand put your heart in my head<br \/>\nOr did it put your head in my heart?<br \/>\nI let go but I did not stop holding on<\/p>\n<p>Angles, shapes, shadows<\/p>\n<p>Every year you think &#8220;this is it, this is who I am&#8221;, not knowing what is to come<\/p>\n<p>How can you be so sure about who you are?<\/p>\n<p>What do you mean when you say you can&#8217;t get over it?<br \/>\nHow would you know if you had got over it?<br \/>\nCan you be in the process of getting over it?<br \/>\nWhy do you have to get over it?<br \/>\nSometimes you only know you can&#8217;t get over it until you can&#8217;t get over it<br \/>\nSometime in the past the circumstances never existed, so the possibility of whatever it was<br \/>\nWas not possible<\/p>\n<p>Knowing who you are is a tricky art<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Thinking about this time last year My neighbours bought an expensive new patio table But I don&#8217;t see them sitting in the garden much these days I still find myself thinking of you (and You, and yOu and, yes, yoU too) But mostly the thoughts are different now I thought I would be already doing [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":7,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[69],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-1330","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-poetic-thoughts"],"aioseo_notices":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.zogue.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1330","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.zogue.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.zogue.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.zogue.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/7"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.zogue.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=1330"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"https:\/\/www.zogue.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1330\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":1333,"href":"https:\/\/www.zogue.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1330\/revisions\/1333"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.zogue.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=1330"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.zogue.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=1330"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.zogue.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=1330"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}